My Janie bug is talking! She can say hello, apple, bubble, uh-oh, and mama. She takes most of her cues from Sami and loves to mimic her. She loves her bling. But she's not walking yet. She stands up and cruises (walks along couches and tables) but hasn't taken that first step. We practice with her, but she's cautious. She'll be there soon.
And now on to my mothering guilt. Janie has been really fussy lately. I mean really fussy. Every night for the past couple of weeks I have been telling Jonathan how I have been going crazy with all the whining. Two days ago, I looked in her mouth and she had a full mouth of teeth. And that's when the guilt came. She had been teething this whole time! And she had all the signs: fussiness, not sleeping well, not eating well, fussiness. I should have known! And instead of massaging her jaw and giving her Tylenol and teething gel, I whined about her whining. It reminds of that time when the girls were in the bathtub and I was "watching" them while reading my Woman's Day magazine. Janie leaned over the tub to get a toy and fell out head first on the floor. And I was right there! But I wasn't paying close enough attention...sigh...I know I'm not a bad mom. I just wish I was a better mom. Actually, I wish I was a perfect mom :). But I do know that stuff like this (and much worse) will happen all the time and that the Atonement makes up for parent's (my) deficiencies. I am so humbled know that Heavenly Father gave me two of His angels to raise and guide and direct. And I am even more humbled and grateful to know that He helps me raise them. I don't do it alone.
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Chrissy, I just love you. Really. I am so glad we are friends. (That is until you really get to know me...) You are contagiously likeable and happy. I love this post, it's honest, yet every mother knows EXACTLY what you mean. We've all been there, and if they say they haven't THEY ARE LYING. :0)
Oh and I also wanted to add that when I see Janie at church with her "bling" on it makes me laugh -but only silently, cause we are usually sitting in sacrament-
You're right. You're not a bad mom! This happens to EVERY mom! It's not like we have the option of being perfect moms. I think that as long as our kids see that we're trying it'll make up for a bunch of the things we do wrong. And I totally agree with you about not doing it alone. I always say that the spirit or angels make babies "rubbermaid" when they do things like falling out of the tub head first. Thank goodness for the gospel!
No worries, I do stuff like that all the time!! Your kids are so stinkin cute!!
I have so been there on the teething thing . . . just wondering why Dallin was so super fussy and wishing he would just "get over it" only to find out - like you did - that he was cutting teeth and I had no idea! I am glad that I am not the only one who has done this . . . just hope I am a little better when Ivey begins teething :) Love your post though - I always love reading things that I can truly relate to . . . and that help me not feel so along in this motherhood thing!
I agree with Kristen, it happens to ALL mom's! You are a great mom and I have had the same thing (with teeth) happen to us.
Your girls are adorable :)
Oh Chrissy, just wait until she's a teenager.... then there's so much more... She is so cute, and I love your blog!
Every mother experiences Mom-Guilt. Just realize you're normal! And when they're all grown up you will pat yourself on the back for having lived through it. I have apologized for all my major oops, but I have let the rest of the baggage go. You are a terrific mother!!!!
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